How much do I love this? Let me count the ways

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7y-x2fWKbmo

The fashion!
How one attempts to save this disaster...and even they can't accomplish that
The random mid-song break for a soda
The primping
THE OMG U 2 HAVE TEH BUTT SEXZ
The high-kicks
Hip-sashaying
Jazz hands

Best 3 minutes of my life
Let's all dance in the street!

hating life one day at a time?

Job search to occur sooner than later now.
Completely got muffed at work this weekend to the point where I literally broke down at work and started to cry. I don't cry. That's not a good sign when WORK does that to a person, let alone me. Luckily there was one other individual on my floor (naturally, my bosses were gone early for the day/weekend) to witness such a moment. And I've gone through hell with him so it wasn't that shocking. In actuality, he was the only one in that entire building who could have said anything to calm me down in the slightest.

Asked for this ONE weekend off so I can celebrate and have some sort of social life as I've come to realize that work is nothing more than a soul sucking entity devouring any form of enjoyment out of life. Yes, there are many individuals I adore that I work with. But the ones higher up, the deciders, failed to realize that I put in a time-off request weeks ago for this weekend. Didn't happen. I'm stuck working tomorrow afternoon. Rationalized that I could go up afterwards only to just now see that any festivities that were occurring are tonight. Where I'm stuck in Albertville.

There are so few moments in my life where I feel completely under-appreciated. I've covered for my bosses' asses too many times to count and this is the payment I get. I don't get a single "thank you" why should I expect to have a weekend to relax and gain any form of my sanity back?

Yet they still fail to realize they have completely given up on their jobs and I have to take the slack for it. You're bailing out of work early? Okay, I'll make sure the rest of YOUR to-do list is complete. What? The other promotions staff fucked up? No worries, I'll fix their errors. You want me to stay late? Sure, no problem.

Icing on the cake is I can no longer have any sort of fun on Halloween. Yes, I'm stuck working. What a travesty my life has become where my friends are more surprised when I am actually able to make it out rather than canceling on them at the last minute.

Factors keeping me:
Most of the people
Freebies (because I'm greedy like that)
The fact this IS a job in the music industry (not what I want in the future but connections exist) and the job market is hard.

NOT keeping me:
Little pay
Freebies dwindling. Example, after all the work I do I asked for tickets to a show that my parents could enjoy. Up until 4pm today I didn't get the tickets. For tomorrow's show. Boss had a pair left and threw them at me.
The lack of a social life
The fact work can now actually make me cry
Any other aspect of this post that further entails how much I loathe work and my very existence at this point.

wtf?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=76B4hG_wLJs

5 October continued

Needless to say, work was terrible.
Was supposed to arrive for the TC Marathon by 5:30. Arrived only to have it still be pitch black outside as well as my coworkers and myself the only ones there. Besides the mass amounts of bunnies we saw on the sidewalks. Others showed up around 7-7:15.
Wasn't terrible; sleep deprivation didn't hurt me terribly. Medication was not required. Only a little amount of coffee. However, the constant rain put a greater damper on the entire situation. Causing my illness I've been attempting to recoup from come back full-force. Actually, I believe it's worse now.
So I've been awake for 41 hours now. Even sicker than before. Oh, and crazy is arriving tomorrow. Life rules

Sign that Tina is an idiot

I have been awake since 6am yesterday. I am currently still awake as I have to be at work in less than two hours (5am to be exact). Test to study for. Sleep deprived. Tired. The unfortunate combination of coffee and/or energy drinks with a helping of NoDoz may be required; meaning I'll be jittery for a good three days.
Sucks sucks sucks